On being needy…

20 Aug 2010 5 Comments

by 4lilpups in Uncategorized Tags: truth

I woke up in a grumpy mood this morning because for some unknown reason, I was up for about an hour in the middle of the night.  I got ready for work, stepped foot in the office,  and almost immediately decided that today would be a day better spent at home.

I felt so overwhelmed.

It is so hard for to be honest with people about what I’m struggling with- but over the past six months it has become easier and easier for me to be real with the people I’m closest to.  I’ve been able to- for the first time in my life- admit when I need support, or love or attention.    It hasn’t been without hesitation, though.  In the back of my head, every single time I’ve had to admit that I need something, I get scared that I’m “too much” for someone to handle and that they will tire of me being so “needy” and will leave if I continue to share my insecurities.

Imagine the relief I felt as I read this: ” We are needy people because we were created that way.  We need to be loved.  We need to be affirmed.  Those are not weaknesses.  We were created with those needs.”

Wait- did that just say that needing love and affirmation is not a weakness? That God created me this way?  That I’m not some kind of broken person who isn’t good enough to feel whole on my own?

I’m not sure how long I sat on the middle of the living room floor soaking that up, but it felt really, really good.

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