Captivating
10 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
Four years ago, a dear friend of mine bought a book for me (*Captivating, by John and Stasi Eldredge). I’ve opened it a couple of times, but never gotten past the introduction. The reason? THIS BOOK SCARES ME.
I know how weird that sounds. Here I am, almost 27 years old, and I’m scared of a book. *rolls eyes*
To be honest, this book scares me because at some point, I’m going to read it. And it’s all about how God feels about me and how He created me to be exactly who I am, and how everything about me is more than just OK.
Scary, isn’t it? Of all the things I’ve felt in my life, the only one that has been consistent is that I have never felt that I am enough. I’ve never been good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, skinny enough, talented enough…I’ve always just been “OK.”
Last night, as I sat in my car, I opened the book and started reading. The first page was interesting and uplifting…exactly what I was expecting. The second page brought me to tears, as I read “Sometime between the dreams of your youth and yesterday, something precious has been lost. And that treasure is your heart, your priceless, feminine heart. God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring. No doubt it has been misunderstood. Surely it has been assaulted. But it is there, your true heart, and it is worth recovering. You are captivating.*”
Just in case you didn’t get that- my heart is worth recovering.
